IF I

yesteryear ive watched demetri martin via facebook on his stand up comedy tittled IF I. i realized tht it needs great exps in life to talk like tht. and off course he got variety of vocabulary in his medulla. u see, how he manage to see all words tht catches his eye and reshuffle them into new words from eclectic pov, which i found out tht is pretty awesome! the probs is- IF I just happen to understand and talk like how the niggas do, tht will be pretty fabulous for me. FOR ME.

 off course u guys might heard or might not about steve jobs  the pixar and apple ceo. His speech is invigorating!  Next,  wht catch my eyes and ears is ' the last lectures by randy pausch'. well his a genius, and his words already viral in you tube. check him out!theres a link below on hsi vids. about 13 mil people listen to him. good stuff, great guy.

demetri martin with his honesty. cool aint he?

lepak-lepak barra

gua budak baru naik area jln kebun.
sebab tu gua bajet kuat suka langgar ah chai ah long yg bikin darah gua naik syikh.

 gua buat buat tenang time gua turun area gua .
tetibe ada budak pakai topi jerami ala-ala budak getah bawak kamera dia hulur kertas putih.

gua ingat dia nak ugut gua serah kawansan gua, gua memang menyirap ah.

actly die nak amek gambar je. gua terasa diperbodohkan lagi sekali.

cam gampang.

[tak silap gua semua brothers ni termasuk gua masih single. atau mungkin gua tersilap. tapi semua dah ada ex.(ntah apa kaitan) -bru blek uone futsal bukit raja.]

agak-agak pakai uniform putih navy sambil strum spencer orait tak?

aku rasa cerita post aku yang lepas sedikit hina.

lebih kurang macam ketagih perempuan pulak bila aku baca balik.

jijik sikit kot.

haritu cerita konon jugak.
"kental hatiku bak askar vietnam buat sidekick dekat spielberg"


 tapi kena tangkap kaki baling campak masuk hutan, kene tembak bertubi-tubi dgn 13mm magnum, mati bodoh-bodoh.

jadi aku fikir lebih baik aku main irama twist guna spencer eventho aku punya jari pekong dan belau.

kalau sejak kecil abah ajar aku main gitar, sekarang aku tengah gilap tali gitar pakai thinner tunggu masa utk audition utk perform dgn urbanscape dah.

oh em gee!

yewp, thts right. thts wht i wanted to share for today post. like OMG WTF?!

3 days to go and im out! this 5 weeks of naval ROTU training have gimme lotsoff effing good exps and memory i wont forget. lotsoff thing ive learned, and lotsoff things need to be revised. And i believe, i realized most of my flaws during this training and im pleased with that. btw, i think my vocab have worsen since ive stopped ranting myself in muse for this 5 weeks, and yeah theres lot to remember and practice.

and yeah,OMG!

1) ive bee pawned!
2) got rejected!
3) and being cheated!


well, this is my 3rd time (consecutively-LOL) and let say i have a damn bad luck with girls.
dunno whts wrong, but i do thing something is lacking in me, and ive learned my lesson again for this time exps.i do mean this time.err- time equal to girl. lawl.


and OMG, im cool this time. thts why. perhaps my spcl feelings for girls have faded (again),and do pray theres still some small pinhole inside me to search a girl for my mom. and till then, wish me luck. HAHA

note to self:

dummy on the lines.

i try to adjust myself back to wht i suppose and should do. the thing is,i stumbled down a month ago.yet, i try to synchronize back my mood with things tht seems to revolve my way bck to where it should be. im cool as for now.As for now, im on a 5 week training with utm naval rotu. well, i gain lots of exps, regain something ive lost, and achieve something new to be proud of.

In case words are used to puzzle things out, we can also use words to motivate others, and make other lost themselve with words. i learn to use words this way during this 2 weeks training(3 weeks to go) wisely, as to make myself a dependable leader one day.

i learned how to express my weaknesses at the humblest and sincerest way, and by learning so- i realize wht makes me not me and wht are things tht i lack and need to add ups to myself, to fit myself thts why.


well, things are cool, but not to smooth. but im good with how things are now.

i suppose i do understand wht mature does mean.
im able to understand wht love actually mean, its not about girls, it about how we understand other feelings and grab it back to our emotion. i realize i dont need special girlfreind now. dont have to seek for it now.

friends, family, teachers, instructors, pals, well these guys are the most important groups of fella to me now.
hopefully it remains. i thanks Allah, and i thank to those tht help me recognize myself and wht i suppose to be and not wht i should be. Allahuwahdahu la syarikalahu, muhhamadan a'bduhu warasuluhu. tawajjahu haisu syi'ta, faiina ka manthuraa~.

amin.